1. To stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or until something else happens.
2. Used to indicate that one is eagerly impatient to do something or for something to happen.
If I can pinpoint one specific thing that God has continuously been teaching me over the last 2 years, it's to wait. Whether that's to wait on His timing, to wait and be still, to wait and find joy in the season I'm in...it's always been that one word: WAIT.
If you know me at all, you know that I struggle with being impatient. I'm a go, go, go kind of person and love marking things off a to-do list. Very seldom do I take the time to be still, breathe a minute, chill, and focus on the things that actually matter in this world. To be quite honest, I hate to wait.
I feel like I'm constantly in a state of waiting. When I get what I want, I'm always eager to find the next thing that I have to wait for. I'm hardly ever at a state of contentment because I'm always wanting something more, which means waiting for something.
Currently, I've been a season of waiting for over 2 years.
And as I sit here in my sweet little house in my sweet little neighborhood, I cry as I type this because I hate being in this season. I'm over it and ready for something new.
Now, my intention is to not sulk in my sadness, but rather find hope and peace and joy. And that maybe, just maybe, there's someone out there who's struggling with this waiting season too and that reading this will give them hope and peace and joy.
So, here it goes:
"Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain." - 1 Corinthians 15:58
"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchman for the morning." - Psalm 130:5-6
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him." - Psalm 37:7
These three verses are verses that I've had to speak over myself to remind me that there is purpose in the wait.
I had a plan for myself when I moved to Benton. I won't go into detail because honestly, it doesn't really matter in the point I'm trying to make.
Well, those plans after just a month and a half completely blew up in my face. I was broken, I was hurt, and I was angry. Looking back, I see the hand of God in all of it. God knew exactly what He was doing and what He was pulling me away from. Even though it hurt and even though my heart still aches when I think about it, I know that God had a plan and continues to have a plan.
Ultimately His plan will always be greater than mine. It will always win. Even if I fight it, He will always be the champion.
In this season I'm learning that A) I am perfectly capable of living a beautiful, complete life without having a husband, B) As much as I desire to be a wife and mother, I am blessed with 22 bright and incredibly loving students that I call my kids, and C) God is good and He's always going to be good.
It is easy to use this season sitting around feeling depressed and lonely. I can waste a lot of time in a frantic search for a companion, where I fill all my spare time with being around people.
OR, I can use it to seek the Lord in His Word and in prayer.
If you use your time reading and studying God's Word, reading Christian books, praying, and serving the Lord in some capacity, when God introduces you to your life partner, you will be mature enough for the responsibilities of a Christian marriage. If you want a godly mate, you've got to become the kind of person the kind of person you want to marry would want to marry.
And let me tell you, God can use you where. you. are.
He's doing that with me right now.
Quit saying, "When God does this, I'll serve him better." NO! Serve Him now.
Jesus didn't say, "I'll die on the cross for them if I see them do "this"."
Don't give God ultimatums.
God can use you in whatever season you're in. The cool about seasons is that they change.
So, if you don't necessarily like the season you're in, hold fast, trust God and His timing, and a new season will come.
Surround yourself with people who will love you, encourage you, pray for and with you.
Living in Gospel community is necessary in any season you're in.
With all that being said, live life knowing that there in purpose in your waiting. God is molding and shaping you into the man or woman that He calls and desires for you to be. So, let Him. Quit trying to make plans and let God move, even if you don't understand.
Whatever you're waiting on, let God be God, be patient, and wait on Him and His timing.
Our job isn't to understand; Our job is to obey.
The longer you have to wait for something, the more you will appreciate it when it finally arrives. The harder you have to fight for something, the more priceless it will become once you achieve it. The more pain you have to endure on your journey, the sweeter the arrival at your destination.
All good things are worth waiting for and worth fighting for.
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